I wish I had something insightful to say. I wish I could cull something deep and meaningful to the surface.
I do not have insight.
Today, I sat on my bed staring out the window in a haze of apathy. On the same window, I noticed a sticker that says “For Emergency Exit”. It basically tells how to open the window.
I was struck by the words, because I have wanted to exit life. Life has felt like a plane dive-bombing due to lost engines – full emergency mode.
But there are no emergency exits here.
So my insight today is that life sucks. Things feel bleak. I suppose this is depression.
Hello, old friend.